The Truth Is......

The truth is, I've been hurt, by more than a few
The truth is, I've been broken, driven to the brink of depression
The truth is, sometimes I lose my cool, because I'm not heard when I keep cool
The truth is, you don't know my story, so who are you to judge

The truth is, I am kind and sweet
The truth is, I'm caring and giving
The truth is, I will and have given my all
The truth is, I've been hurt so much in almost numb to the pain
The truth is, even though I say I'm through with love, there's still so much in me to give
The true is, no matter how much you hurt me, I will still give you love and respect

You Heard

From all the Boys before you, you heard I was just temporary
From all the Boys before you, you heard I was just something to do
From all the Boys before you, you heard I was crazy
From all the Boys before you, you heard I  was a waste of time
From all the Boys before you, you heard all I did was fuss and argue

'We' Can't Breathe

We can't breathe with your guns in our faces
We can't breathe with your knees on our necks
We can't breathe when we are pulled over for fitting a description
We can't breathe when our backs are towards the walls
We can't breathe with our hands bound behind our backs
We can't breathe behind the bars of the jail house, caged up like animals
We can't breathe while walking down the street
We can't breathe while becoming entrepreneurs trying to feed our families
We can't breathe when our sons, brothers, husbands, friends; OUR KINGS, don't come home at night

Quarantined

Today is March 29, 2020 and the world is in a major crisis. The pandemic outbreak of COVID-19 (the Coronavirus) has the entire world shook. People panicking, people dying, and some not reacting at all to the seriousness of it all.  Most states in the US have implemented curfews and shut down non-essential businesses. The world is in total chaos.

I set out to write a post this morning and had no idea what I wanted to write about, so I asked 2 of my friends if they had any thoughts. It was suggested that I blog about the current pandemic. At first I hesitated because my life has not changed much due to the 'mandatory' shutdown, so I decided to look back at my old posts and read a few for inspiration.

I Am Wounded

I am a lover. I am kind. I am caring. I am dedicated. I am worthy. I am lovable. I am beautiful. I am....

I am a monster. I am a sinner. I am a fraud. I am a liar and a deceiver. I am worthless. I am crazy. I am   a home wrecker. I am a fool. I am dumb and stupid. I am a failure. I am a betrayer. I am hopeless. I am weak. I am afraid. I am broken. I am negative. I am sarcastic. And I am to blame!

To All The Boys I Loved Before...

To all the boys I loved before......
Thank you for showing me what I don't deserve and teaching me that not every guy can be or will be for me. Thank you for causing my heart to break and shatter into a million pieces. It may have taken over a dozed years to stitch back the broken pieces that you each contributed to, but I learned so much through out the process. Thank you for sharing with me what I did right and what I did wrong (verbally & nonverbally). Thank you for the good times and the bad. Thank you for making me take the time to reflect, grow, mature, and discover who I am, who I truly am without YOU! Each experience, each lesson, opened my eyes to the qualities/characteristics I want and don't want in a partner/relationship. The pain you caused was worth it. I needed to feel it, to teach me not to go back there again......

What Happens Now?

Some call it desperation, others may call it hope, but there has always been 'something' inside of me that is immensely filled with love and hope. It is often an extremely overwhelming feeling. Because of the depth of love I feel, it often causes me to overdo and become overbearing. I want others to know and understand my genuine nature and judge me not for my mistakes or poor judgement.