We Have A Dream.....One Fueled By Dr. King

Tuesday, August 25, 2020



In 1968, he had a Dream! 
Dr. Martin Luther King Jr., had a dream that African American people would be afforded the same rights, privileges, and justice as the rest of mankind. However;


"....One hundred years later, the Negro still is not free. One hundred years later, the life of the Negro is still sadly crippled by the manacles of segregation and the chains of discrimination. One hundred years later, the Negro lives on a lonely island of poverty in the midst of a vast ocean of material prosperity. One hundred years later, the Negro is still languished in the corners of American society and finds himself an exile in his own land. And so we've come here today to dramatize a shameful condition." ~MLK Jr. 
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Dear Montbello High,

Thursday, August 13, 2020



To you, 

When we met I had no inkling the impact you would have on my life. I was completely unaware of the love we would share or how long you would stay in my heart. As a young 25 year old, recent graduate/two-time Alumni of Troy University, (Troy, Alabama), and newly residing resident of Denver, Colorado, I was looking for a new lease on life and a place that would afford me new opportunities. 

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Age Ain't Nothing But A Number

Monday, August 10, 2020



According to your age, are you where you feel you should be?

According to your age, have you accomplished everything you set out to accomplish by that predetermined age?

According to your age, are you as emotionally mature as the days you are old?

When we are younger, we all dream of what our lives will be like as we age. We all make mental notes on where will will live, how many kids we will have, visions of that tall, dark, handsome husband tearing up as we walk down the aisle to what we dreamt would be our very own storybook fairytale. 
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Beautiful Black Girl Scholars

Friday, August 7, 2020

 

In the future, this page will be the home of the Beautiful Black Girl Scholarship Foundation. Please check back periodically for updated information and ways to donate.

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I Do Not Know

Friday, July 17, 2020


Here we... well I go again! Spinning outta control, no where to turn, drowning in a sea of emotions, gasping for air, no life saver in sight.

Why must I be like this? Why must I give it ALL to ALL the wrong people. Why do I share myself, only to be used, emotionally abused, and ultimately let down? What is it about me that stamps me with this undying desire for men to come into my life - only for a while- and disappear with no warning, no explanation, no sense of compassion or concern?

I am sure I have been labeled. I am sure I have been laughed at. I am positive I have been the entertainment of 'boys night out and boys night in'. I seems that I am the epitome of a desperate, lonely fool begging for love in all the wrong places.

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I Didn't Go Looking For You

Thursday, July 2, 2020



I didn't go looking for you! You came looking for me. I didn't know if I was ready to start something new, something different....I didn't know if I was ready for you!

Turns out, in the beginning I wasn't ready. I should have waited until I was. I should have waited until Fairfield was gone. Trying to hold on to the old while trying to build something lasting with the new was clearly not what I needed to do. Storms came too early that neither of us could weather. Emotions and immaturity reared it's head and caused ruckus in the air. The calm came after the storm and I felt things were on a better healthier path. Little did I know a hurricane was brewing straight up ahead.

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It Was All A Dream..... Or Was It?

Tuesday, June 9, 2020


Last night while lying peacefully in my warm comfy bed, I had a dream I was blogging. I didn't think anything strange about this dream because I have been blogging a lot the last few weeks. But this story about a dream takes a vivid, sharp turn deep into a valley of what appeared to be a subconscious effort to get answers to long awaiting unanswered questions.

Not sure if any of you have personally experienced sleep walking or witnessed another individual sleep walking in the wee hours of the morning or during the darkest hours of the night. I have witnessed an old friend do this a few years back and was blown away at the accuracy of normalcy she displayed subconsciously while preparing a sandwich from the ingredients she pulled from the fridge. She did this, all while conversing with someone that wasn't within her presence.
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Can There Be Love After the Toxicity?

Sunday, June 7, 2020



Can there be love after the toxicity? What do you think? Have you yourself been able to love and allow yourself to be loved after a toxic relationship, or has it made you too afraid to put yourself back out there again?  When we allow toxicity into our relationships and it becomes a routine behavior that we lean on as a crutch to break the fall of us crashing to the ground, we create bad habits.... we create our own hell. 

From my personal experiences, which may not be the same as yours, I have learned that breaking bad habits that I picked up from past relationships, are way harder to change after you are use to them. Even when you know those habits are not beneficial and most often detrimental not only to the other person, but most importantly detrimental to YOURSELF!
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Friday Night Lights

Saturday, June 6, 2020



Last night has to be one of the best nights of my life. I wish I could have been a fly on the wall recording the conversation so I would always have it and never forget it. From bouncing movie/TV series back and forth, what we have seen or not seen to what we want one another to check out. To discussing some of the most tramautic experiences of my life, Black Lives Matter, the protests etc., to he and I and what went wrong, to me and my lack of confidence, to relationship discussions, and how men like to chase.....TO HUNT.

I had four separate dreams last night about us and the future we can never have, but I am grateful that we have been able to build a friendship, one we both believe will last a lifetime.

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The Truth Is......

Monday, June 1, 2020


The truth is, I've been hurt, by more than a few
The truth is, I've been broken, driven to the brink of depression
The truth is, sometimes I lose my cool, because I'm not heard when I keep cool
The truth is, you don't know my story, so who are you to judge

The truth is, I am kind and sweet
The truth is, I'm caring and giving
The truth is, I will and have given my all
The truth is, I've been hurt so much in almost numb to the pain
The truth is, even though I say I'm through with love, there's still so much in me to give
The true is, no matter how much you hurt me, I will still give you love and respect
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You Heard



From all the Boys before you, you heard I was just temporary
From all the Boys before you, you heard I was just something to do
From all the Boys before you, you heard I was crazy
From all the Boys before you, you heard I  was a waste of time
From all the Boys before you, you heard all I did was fuss and argue
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'We' Can't Breathe

Thursday, May 28, 2020



We can't breathe with your guns in our faces
We can't breathe with your knees on our necks
We can't breathe when we are pulled over for fitting a description
We can't breathe when our backs are towards the walls
We can't breathe with our hands bound behind our backs
We can't breathe behind the bars of the jail house, caged up like animals
We can't breathe while walking down the street
We can't breathe while becoming entrepreneurs trying to feed our families
We can't breathe when our sons, brothers, husbands, friends; OUR KINGS, don't come home at night
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Quarantined

Sunday, March 29, 2020


Today is March 29, 2020 and the world is in a major crisis. The pandemic outbreak of COVID-19 (the Coronavirus) has the entire world shook. People panicking, people dying, and some not reacting at all to the seriousness of it all.  Most states in the US have implemented curfews and shut down non-essential businesses. The world is in total chaos.

I set out to write a post this morning and had no idea what I wanted to write about, so I asked 2 of my friends if they had any thoughts. It was suggested that I blog about the current pandemic. At first I hesitated because my life has not changed much due to the 'mandatory' shutdown, so I decided to look back at my old posts and read a few for inspiration.
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Words Kill

Saturday, March 28, 2020


I am a lover. I am kind. I am caring. I am dedicated. I am worthy. I am lovable. I am beautiful. I am....

I am a monster. I am a sinner. I am a fraud. I am a liar and a deceiver. I am worthless. I am crazy. I am   a home wrecker. I am a fool. I am dumb and stupid. I am a failure. I am a betrayer. I am hopeless. I am weak. I am afraid. I am broken. I am negative. I am sarcastic. And I am to blame!

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To All The Boys I Loved Before...

Friday, February 21, 2020




To all the boys I loved before......
Thank you for showing me what I don't deserve and teaching me that not every guy can be or will be for me. Thank you for causing my heart to break and shatter into a million pieces. It may have taken over a dozed years to stitch back the broken pieces that you each contributed to, but I learned so much through out the process. Thank you for sharing with me what I did right and what I did wrong (verbally & nonverbally). Thank you for the good times and the bad. Thank you for making me take the time to reflect, grow, mature, and discover who I am, who I truly am without YOU! Each experience, each lesson, opened my eyes to the qualities/characteristics I want and don't want in a partner/relationship. The pain you caused was worth it. I needed to feel it, to teach me not to go back there again......
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What Happens Now?

Wednesday, January 29, 2020

Some call it desperation, others may call it hope, but there has always been 'something' inside of me that is immensely filled with love and hope. It is often an extremely overwhelming feeling. Because of the depth of love I feel, it often causes me to overdo and become overbearing. I want others to know and understand my genuine nature and judge me not for my mistakes or poor judgement.

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